Any day above ground is a good one

Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying, that has always been one of my favorite quotes from The Shawshank Redemption where Andy Dufresne tells Red to get busy living or get busy dying. I have been doing that since my last post, at least the get busy living part. I have needed some distance from the blog, first because of the Christmas holidays with the friends, family and parties, and then because I just needed the break from being immersed in the thoughts of my own cancer.

During my hiatus I have fallen back into the routine of my life and I have found that the thought of cancer is not as ever-present as it once was. But from time to time I have been jolted back into the reality of that which is called Cancer. Since my last post I have had three friends find out they have cancer. Two with lung cancer and one with salivary gland cancer. It was jolting to me each and every time I heard about another friend having to meet this sobering reality but not as jolting to me as it use to be. I use to be scared to death of the mention of the word but now I am not and I have tried to help my friends with the knowledge of my experience.

I find it startling how many of my friends are dealing with cancer, or perhaps I am just noticing more. I want to think that because of my age it is just that time in one’s life when illnesses start to capture many of us. In any case I have heard more and more the stories of other peoples cancer instead of my own. Not that I have anything much to say as my health has been good and getting better. I am due for my one year since seeding exam on the 25th ( Woo Hoo!! ) at the Dattoli Center and I have been getting blood work done to get ready for that exam. I have high confidence that my results from my exam will be good but time will tell. I can tell that Paula is becoming anxious as my appointment approaches and I don’t think that she has the same trust that I do. I do know she has a lot of fear regarding my health and for that I can only tell her there is no tomorrow, only today, and today I am fine.

I have always meant for this blog to be my story of my Prostate Cancer and only that. I never wanted it to evolve into anything else like a clearinghouse for prostate cancer information, just my story that’s it. And because many people are finding this site and spend a considerable amount of time here I feel that this blog is helping people through the fog of having prostate cancer. This is enough for me. So as time goes by and my exams are all good you may find my postings becoming farther and farther apart as I get busy living …..